When I looked forward to this day back in December, this is not what I had in mind. I should be having a baby today. I'm trying to keep myself busy, but my mind keeps drifting back. I'm getting caught up in the "should haves." I wonder if this day will be hard every year. Will I always think that I "should" have a one year old, or a two year old, or a twelve year old? It doesn't help that I have so many friends right now that have just had their babies or are about to have their babies. Just another reminder...
I'm tired of being so sad all the time. I had been doing much better, but the past few weeks have been difficult. I'm hoping once I get past today, I'll start feeling better again.
I think I'm going to take my sweet Piper to the park. I really am so blessed.
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