Heartbroken but not Surprised

I'm not sure why I let myself believe that this time would be different. You would think that it would get easier, but it doesn't. I'm completely crushed. I'm not sure how much more I can take. At this point, we'll definitely be pursuing more testing. If we still don't get any answers, we may be done. I can't keep doing this. My heart can't handle it.

We've started talking about adoption, but we're not emotionally (or financially) ready to pursue that just yet. I loved everything about being pregnant with Piper, and I want more than anything to experience that again. It would be very hard for me to let go of that dream, but we're open to the idea of adoption. Right now, we've just got a lot of healing to do.