In Limbo

Judging by my lab results, this pregnancy seems to be progressing perfectly. On Monday, my hcg (pregnancy hormone) was 1147 and my progesterone was 75.1 (they want it 19 or higher.) Hcg should double every 48-72 hours. Today mine was 4131. It almost tripled. I should be thrilled, right?

I had an ultrasound today. They expect to see something once your hcg reaches 2500. Unfortunately, he didn't see anything on the ultrasound. Nothing. I'm only 4 weeks 5 days pregnant, so it's possible it's too early. With my numbers so high, though, Dr. C is very concerned that this is an ectopic pregnancy, which means the embryo implanted in my Fallopian tube instead of my uterus.

I have another ultrasound tomorrow morning, but I'm already feeling hopeless and defeated. It seems so cruel that we seemingly finally have one growing the way it should and it's likely in the wrong place.

I'm praying for a miracle. I'm praying that he sees something tomorrow morning. I'm praying that we don't have to say goodbye to our FIFTH baby in less than three years.

I was feeling so good about this pregnancy. Why can't anything be easy? How much more do we have to go through?