A Year Ago...

A year ago we said goodbye to our sweet Avery, who would be about four months old right now. I didn't even realize what today was until I wrote the date down while taking notes at church this morning. I knew today was coming; I just didn't realize it was here. It felt like the wind had been knocked out of me when I wrote that date and remembered the significance. Remembered the pain and heartache I was feeling on this day last year. I feel terrible for forgetting, even for a second.

The rest of the day was rough, to say the least. I had to go to work after church, which was a good distraction, but I was also at work this day a year ago when I started bleeding. When I got to work, one of my coworkers shared with me that she is expecting. They weren't even trying. Ouch. I'm so happy for her, and I hope and pray she gets to bring this baby home. Her last pregnancy ended in miscarriage, and I know how terrifying it is to be pregnant after a loss. It was just terrible timing. To add insult to injury, AF is here... talk about a horrible reminder.

Overall, today was just a sad day, but I managed to make it through. It amazes me how far I've come in the past year. I have my moments for sure, but I'm feeling less and less broken. It can only get easier, right?