A few days ago, I realized that this is the longest we've gone without getting pregnant since the first loss. We decided after the loss in May to stop trying until we were able to have testing done. After focusing so much time and energy on trying to get pregnant for a year and a half, not trying has been hard on me. But as much as I want another baby, I think the break has been a good thing. Time really is a great healer. I'm in a much better place than I have been for a while. That's not to say that I don't still have sad moments and sometimes even sad days. I know the heartache will never completely go away, but I feel like I'm finally ready to move forward.
I think it also helps that I'm feeling a renewed hope. Things really seem to be falling into place for us right now. God really is so good. It looks like we're going to be able to start trying again soon after the beginning of the year. Hopefully, by then, we'll have some answers and good plan moving forward to avoid another loss. I'm sure the rest of this year will go by quickly with Piper's birthday and the holidays coming up. I don't want to wish time away, but I'm so ready to move forward and start trying again.
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