Appointment

My doctor's appointment was today. My stomach has been in knots since yesterday, and I seriously thought I was going to throw up on the way there. It went well, though. I really, really liked Dr. C and he's willing to be as aggressive as we want to be with testing. He is very knowledgeable and compassionate. Compassion was something that was lacking from my previous Ob/Gyn, and one of the reasons I left that practice.  It was nice to see a doctor who seemed to truly care and didn't make me feel like I was an inconvenience.

Due to the nature of my losses and the fact that I've had a perfectly healthy pregnancy, he thinks it's most likely something hormonal, like a luteal phase defect or thyroid issues. He also thinks I'm slightly insulin resistant, but isn't concerned about that right now since I'm able to get pregnant. They did bloodwork today and plan to start me on progesterone as soon as I get a positive pregnancy test. I'm anxious to get the results of the bloodwork, but Dr. C sees no reason for us to wait to try again. In fact, we're under strict doctor's orders to "go get pregnant."

I'm trying to be hopeful, but it's hard. I'm so nervous about trying again. I hate knowing that when I do get that positive test, my first reaction will be fear and worry, not joy and excitement.