Two Years

It's officially been over two years since we started trying for number two. I had my IUD removed on January 5, 2010. I never imagined it would take us the seven months it did to get pregnant, and I certainly never imagined this is where we would be two years later. Three losses, broken hearts, and empty arms.

I honestly thought by now we'd be talking about trying for number three. Now, I'm not sure there will be a number three, assuming we get number two. So much has changed the past two years. I've learned that you can't plan life. God has shown me very clearly that things I thought were in my control most definitely aren't.

I'm sure you've heard the saying, "If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him your plans." I'm willing to trust His plan for my life and I believe He intends to fulfill my desire to have more children. He's telling me to be patient. I know that, but I don't like it. I just want to know when. How long do I have to wait?